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Lay Me Down

Lay me down From purgatory bound Worse than hell Take me to the river Take me down Down to the river to pray I’ll get on my knees I’ll beg and I’ll plea Just don’t keep me here In purgatory town I can’t handle this penance It’s too harsh for my sentence So lay me down From purgatory bound Take me away From purgatory town Living, reliving, horrors of old I think I deserve not to be cold My soul, not for sale, never sold So lay me down Don’t let me drown Here in purgatory town .

The Digital Man (My struggle with delusional psychosis)

I look, I look, I SEE . noth , some , every . –thing– Seek , search , look , see, watch , find –ing– Everything , Something , Nothing The thing , this thing , that thing a what thing Perhaps a who thing Suspicion(ous) It’s there , They’re there , He’s there Waiting…Watching…Staring…Glaring I wait, I look, I see, I check, I stare, I glare glance/seek/search/look/watch/stare I check, again , & again Log in, log out, sign in, sign up Blinds do not blind, was I blind the whole time? No . Curtains down , screen up . Ominous, it glowed, with mode & code, it loads… Sentient, or men inside it, men behind it. [Dave] “Open the pod bay doors, HAL” “Open the pod bay doors, please HAL” Hello, HAL, do you read me? DO YOU READ ME HAL? [panicked] [HAL] “Affirmative, Dave, I read you.”[calmly] [Dave] “Open the pod bay doors, HAL” [HAL] “I’m afraid I can’t do that, Dave” –A 2001 Space Odyssey – Now has become earthbound, –A 2024 Cyberspace Oddity – Now opened, not the doors to a pod bay , Bu...

Sandworms

                                                                                                       Did we die ? Did I die ? …would we know ? …where’d we go ? You said some T H I N G S  that really, got me thinkin’ bout T H I N G S  Philosophy. Life. T        H           I             N                G    B  I  G    T  H  I  N  G  S.         Heaven,  Purgatory,  Hell,    ...