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Ruse in the Attic

SheToldMe it was up there. We had just met, Kinsleigh & me. Who showered that night? Steve & me D.I.D .n’t know but we do know all night, it snowed H A R D. Speculated, us two D.I.D. someone new get on the bus? or have they… always been there . …in there The new girl  didn’t like me at first… she would play R E I N D E E R  G A M E S She pointed to a crawl space above was a small white  recessed hatch “There” She didn’t even “look at it”  –while pointing.– “What’s in there?” I was nervous I was angry I was uneasy than spiteful she was, unsure of me Broomstick wielding I pushed there. This was probably amongst the more interesting bus drives  where only D.I.D I ride I pulled up a chair to reach up to there up there… was Something, one thing a pillow, stuffed  unevenly,  was my footing. She stared at it. while… laughter erupted I was pissed. what is this? a moment passed  before I joined the laughteruption Morose lifted, slowly SheGotMe....

Football

                                                                                            Let’s go out, publicly wiggly. We arrive, only one’s parked. The light, it buzzes, dimly.  Dressed up, messed up, & revved up. We seek to stake a claim.  We scout, lookout, & enter by the dugout. Timeless, unchanging, NIGHT. Our time. As we hike in there’s… no game to see. Just you & also me. We go deeper, to the field & into paranoia too. Who else just might be, using the lou? No one in sight, we found our oasis. Calm until noises cried out, that is. Bum rush? Lurkers? Criminals? – not tonight Who knew owls could scream out  in such a wretched  blight. The debauchery ensued, surely as p...

The Digital Man (My struggle with delusional psychosis)

I look, I look, I SEE . noth , some , every . –thing– Seek , search , look , see, watch , find –ing– Everything , Something , Nothing The thing , this thing , that thing a what thing Perhaps a who thing Suspicion(ous) It’s there , They’re there , He’s there Waiting…Watching…Staring…Glaring I wait, I look, I see, I check, I stare, I glare glance/seek/search/look/watch/stare I check, again , & again Log in, log out, sign in, sign up Blinds do not blind, was I blind the whole time? No . Curtains down , screen up . Ominous, it glowed, with mode & code, it loads… Sentient, or men inside it, men behind it. [Dave] “Open the pod bay doors, HAL” “Open the pod bay doors, please HAL” Hello, HAL, do you read me? DO YOU READ ME HAL? [panicked] [HAL] “Affirmative, Dave, I read you.”[calmly] [Dave] “Open the pod bay doors, HAL” [HAL] “I’m afraid I can’t do that, Dave” –A 2001 Space Odyssey – Now has become earthbound, –A 2024 Cyberspace Oddity – Now opened, not the doors to a pod bay , Bu...